There's a smell of silage in this e-cafe. ick.
Lots of little things that've happened over the summer have gotten me thinking - hard - about what I wanna do. It also helps that people are constantly aaasking...
Well, what I mean is, what I wanna do in the future. I know EXACTLY what I wanna do NOW...
Right now, I wanna mess around and enjoy my days - and I have been. A lot!
I wanna hold on and embrace the playful, spontaneous attitude that abandoned me for a while until, recently, resurfacing and making everything more fun again.
I went to the pharmacy the other day and came back with a painting - well, a print of a photo - which I hung on my wall. It's arguably the most pointless waste of money I've ever bought but, now, is my absolute pride and joy. It's a lovely scene from Dún Chaoin in Kerry. Best bit is, I've BEEN there - I remember passing that exact spot and going, wow, I'd LOVE to take a picture that captures just how vertigo-y and awe-smacking this sight is. And this photographer did just that. Lovely. (Handy.)
I'm so chilled lately. Call me crazy, but I put it down to quitting drinking Coke! I did drink an atrocious amount, y'know... and it was fucking with my insides sumthin' AWful...
Maybe it's more than that.
Anyway...all ramblings aside - what I wanna do next year when I finish college is a mystery. Why? Because I wanna do exactly as I'm doing now. Keep letting things happen, taking stupid chances and getting involved in weird shit and reaping the benefits. Call it luck, call it balls, call it life, but I've always gotten what I wanted - well, I've not always know what that was until it came around, but basically I've always landed on my feet.
My plan for when I finish college? Roll with it. Follow the flow. Do EXACTLY what I've always done - which is, NOT make a plan. Just see.
It usually works.
And the best decisions are the ones made at the last minute.
Sure, that's the sole reason I'm sitting here right now.. Grafton St.'s extortionate little e-cafe, on a mediocre Dublin day, after work in Spex's, checking my timetable for my final year - starting this day fortnight. (Journalism, of all things - what was I thinking?)
(Exactly.)
Jesus, I know, what the hell comes after this?
ReplyDeleteif you're able to put your chilledness down to DIET coke then chances are you could lay the blame on the deadly aspartame for that!
ReplyDeleteI think people put too much emphasis on "what do you want to do with your ENTIRE LIFE" when we're young. I, too, embrace messing around and having fun at this age.
ReplyDeleteEveryone has doubts sometimes, it's only natural! But you picked Journalism, an awesome choice and career, make the most of it! PS I made it to Limerick! Wish I were closer to Dublin though..
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